Shooting rainbows at angry bunnies...

Well its official Ben now has a full time desk job! Which i will now convince myself regardless of how true it is or not that he is for the most part out of harms way. Sure I'm living in a dream world but I don't care if it helps me sleep at night I'll think he is shooting rainbows at angry bunnies in a garden that needs weeding. I'm so proud of him. He told me tonight that he was sending home the book that they are selling at hallmark right now the night before Christmas one that you can record yourself reading the whole book. I laughed as soon as he told me the title because i had plans to run out tomorrow and get it and ship it to him so he could ship it back to the kiddos. We always have the same ideas. I love that about us! We are so in sync its scary sometimes. I can't wait to have him home again!

Together or apart...

I have to say I really feel like the saying "absence makes the heart grow fonder" Is super accurate in my situation. I have never felt more in love with my husband. Deployment is a CRAZY time! So many emotions on your plate at once. Its a constant waiting game a lot like Christmas was when you were a kid minus you never worried about Santa in hostile territory. But you wait and you count how many months, how many weeks, how many paychecks, yes even paychecks, and then you decide which one sounds the best. Paychecks is definitely the winner in my case. But even still just like Christmas i think you get gifts as well. No, I'm not talking about the cool stuff the hubby sends home from over there although I do enjoy those gifts too. I'm talking about this crazy love we have for one another, our improved communication, and this driving force as a military wife I have to make my hubby as proud of me as i am of him. I feel such a overwhelming sense of Pride in all my hubby does. And its such an amazing feeling. If you would have told me 4 years ago that I would be as Patriotic as i am now and that i would be the doting wife of a Military Man. I probably would have rolled my eyes at you. I love this crazy life and would not trade it for anything. This experience as been life altering in so many ways and not only that but i think it have given my husband such a feeling of worth. I have always told him he was capable of anything he wanted to do but until the military he didn't know where to put all this energy. He has found his place in this world and it gives me such pleasure. I'm sure there are more huddles to conquer but am not afraid. Together or apart we will endure and rise above it all. I love you, Babe.

I'm still alive...

I know, I know, where have you been, Sarah. Depressed. Just haven't felt like much of anything lately til now that is my hubby brought it to my attention that i have not written in ages. He said he checkes it everytime he gets the chance to get on the internet. By the way Ben is now in the sandbox as we call it and has been for about 3 months now. He is doing very well and recently was PROMOTED!!!! I am SOOOO Flipin Proud! He has such potential! I know he will continue to do well. Also the Hubby and me where chosen to be in the Febuary issue of MilitarySpouse magazine. I entered a contest a month ago, you had to submit a romantic story something your husband has done for you and well OUR STORY WON!!! I have to admit i do kinda have a hopeless romantic on my hand with Ben he has really always been that way. So anyway they emailed me and told me my story was one of the ones chosen. And our story along with our photo will be in the upcoming issue! I'm super excited! I must say it is a REALLY SWEET story but I'm not going to spoil it. I'll fill ya in once its out. Sorry gotta leave you hanging!

Its been an interesting ride so far being without Ben. In all he has been away from our home for 6 months. WHOA!!!! Ya i know CRAZY! Our house is very boring without him here. Sure the kiddos are running around and are definitely loud at times but i miss my husbands loudness. And boy is he loud! I miss his goofiness. I even miss fussing with him about trivial everyday stuff like turning the movie down, we don't need to feel like we are the on the set of the making of the movie when the car skids across 6 lanes of highway while shooting at the bad guys chasing them, or snapping off the little hooks of the plastic hangers so there are no hangers for spaghetti strap shirts, or putting a completely empty tea pitcher back in the frig. Why do we need to keep that cold again? OHHH Benjamin! You make me laugh! You are so silly and i miss you! I think you need to come home now! I love you and you make me proud!

Enough said...

Love knows not it's own depth until the moment of separation.
-Unknown

Y not go swimming...

So I took the kids to the Y today to swim because it is SOOOO HOT here! I didn't get any shots of my oldest, she was messing around too much and half the time wasn't even in the pool so I don't think she will go next time. I couldn't believe she was out there splashing away like everyone else.

Don't drop that hat...

I feel SO emotional here lately. I cry at the drop of a hat. I'm really getting tired of it! I guess i'm depressed but its really not like the other times I've been depressed. I'm not really all that down, well at least not all the time. I don't know but i don't like it at all. I hate having my emotions all over the map and boy are they. I'm a big 'O' mess. But this too shall pass...right? Got to keep pressing forward. Here I go!!!!

My girl is SIX...

So Rylee's 6th birthday was great!!!! She had a blast! Here are some shots from the party.

She can really skate, she really surprised me.





yes that is a Flat screen tv(Thanks Honie, Tiny,Tatee and Georgia)
Me an Aria
No one was exactly sure what kind of creature this was.

So that night the kids spent the night with my mom and a friend while I went out to celebrate a friends Birthday her is a shot from the begining of the night. I look Horible!! We were kinda looking down at my other friend taking the shot i think thats why i have a crazy double chin. AHHHHH
OH MY GOODNESS! I promise I don't have a double chin in real life!!!! But my friends sure are beautiful, aren't they?

And so am I...

I really don't feel much like writing tonight. I'll have some updates tomorrow about our weekend. All i really want to say tonight is, I MISS MY HUSBAND!!!! Oh my goodness do i miss him. This STINKS!!! He brings so much joy to this house of ours and to my everyday. Its so tough being on my own. Don't get me wrong, I'll survive. Its just not ANY fun being apart. I'm so excited to get to go see him before he leaves stateside but at the same time am not looking forward to saying good bye yet again. I'll make it through this and me and the kiddos will be fine and I'm still glad that he is in the military. I'm just SO proud of him and he is doing so great out there. He really loves what he's doing, but he HATES being away from us. I can hear the sadness in his voice when i tell him about the kids. But I'm so glad that he is doing something he enjoys he's never liked his job here in town but always stayed because it was such a good job and we all now how hard those are to come by. So it really makes me happy when he calls me and tell me something great that someone has asked of him or something he has done. I can just feel him beaming with pride and so am I.

Busy Bee...

BUSY BUSY BUSY! Yesterday was my daughters 6th birthday! She was very excited i went ahead and gave her gifts from me and her daddy. Highschool Musical was from Daddy and i got her the frog habitat since we have our new family member the tadpole which by the way now has his back legs. The kids think it is the neatest thing! Also our son of course had to get somthing too.

We went and had lunch at McDonalds and look what Rylee just so happen to get.

Once we did that we had to take Charis to the Dr for shots! She is a bit behind on her shots so i took her in at 5 months. They told me she was the exact hieght and weight of a 7 month old. WOW she's a big girl!!!


I hate taking them for shots!!!! But she has recovered.

Just another day in the life...

Hello all! I have really had a couple of really good days with the kids. We woke up early this morning for CHEER CAMP for Rylee. She looked so Darn cute!!! I would have taken picture but for the first time since I've had my camera i ran the battery completely out so i left it home to charge but i will definitely post some at a later time because i know her daddy will want to see it. So i went and picked her up afterwards and then we went to my sisters for a bit to visit my beautiful niece!! I love her so much, she's so freakin cute!!! Then me and a girl friend of mine took our kids to a little spray park and the had a blast. It kills me how if the kids get the tiniest drop of water in there eyes in the bath tub they are ready to climb the walls but the can run around a spray park and had buckets of water poured on them! After that i ran to Walmart and got the Wii active for myself. Its not always easy to get to the GYM with all these kids of mine so i bring the gym home. I went and turned it on as soon as i got home and OH MY GOODNESS it really kicked my BUTT. I was sweating and gasping for air and never even left a 2 foot radius. Crazy, huh? HIGHLY recommend! So of course after i completed my workout i took a shower and took the game to my friends house because YOU GOTTA TRY THIS!!!!! And that is where I'm at still just hanging out. Goodnight all!!!

The Secret Garden:July Meeting

How do you see or imagine your baby/ies now that you do not have them with you?

I always imagine Caden as a baby in my granny's arms or maybe being pushed in the stroller by my Pa. I think he looks like me with wavy brown hair and blue eyes that light up the heavens. I imagine my Granny telling him all sorts of stories about me and my sister and his Honie. Before my Granny died she told me she would take very good care of him til i get there, that is if she can get him away from my Pa. He was there first great grandchild. She died 7 months later. I believe when we go to heaven we will see our family just the way we want to. For example, my Granny will look just like i want her too old, and well, like a granny, but to my mom I'm sure she will look young like she did when she was raising her. Some people have told me they imagine there baby growing just like they would have had they stayed here. I think that a lifetime here on earth is but a second there in Heaven and no one gets a chance to miss anyone from earth. That's part of the reason why everyone is so happy because before they know it they turn around and everyone they just left on earth is right behind them. When i get there he will be just the way i met him. Small, helpless, and completely dependent on me, his mother.

How did the loss of your last pregnancy affect your choices/decisions about the birth of your subsequent pregnancy?

I had all my others by C-section just like Caden. My Dr was wonderful about Caden i knew he was gone and she gave me the choice to have him natural or C and on top of the choice of C-section i had the choice of being put under or awake. I chose to be put under because the reward at the end of any birth is the cry of you baby i knew i wouldn't be hearing that and didn't want to suffer through that as well. With the other Kiddos i had everyone at either 37 to 38weeks SCHEDULED C-section. I was bringing home a baby dang it!!!

...ssenmodnaR

So here is just pure-D-random stuff for your enjoyment! First of all I'm raising a tadpole my daughter brought home from the neighbors house i had never even seen a tadpole other than on TX and now here i am raising this little guy and he(I guess its a he)(wait a minute aren't frogs asexual?) ((I told you this would be random!)) has already grown ALOT!!!

Further news My daughter threw a battery out of the remote at her brother and chipped his tooth(more than a chip really like 1/3 of it) I was livid!

You really can't see it to good here i just thought it turned out pretty cute.

We went to my friends house today and hung out a bit after going to the GYM!!! (yet another of my items from my TO-DO list)((CHECK)) My son found this and had to bring it home since her daughter grew out of it.

So that's it I think. Now the only thing left to do on the To-Do list is CHURCH! I have a church but i have a girlfriend that want to start going to church and doesn't belong to one so now I'm on the hunt for one that we can go to together. She wouldn't like mine because there isn't enough young people to her liking otherwise i would just go there but i want her to be comfy too. So for now i'm on the lookout!!!

Check one off my TO DO list...

So as you read yesterday I said i have got to get these kids out of this house a bit. So I did it around 2 we went to the park. I always love going to the park. After all who doesn't like taking there kids somewhere where they will have fun for FREE!!!






This is my brother, JB!!
It was hot on her feet.
Let's bury Caben


I was trying to teach Caben to swing his legs so he would keep going.

After The park we went back to Ben's moms AKA Tiny to get cleaned up a bit. The kids were soooo dusty from the burying each other. Then we ran home and ate dinner and went back to Tiny's and picked her up for a SWEET TREAT. We also met up with my sister in law, Brittany and nephew, Cy.

Rylee's was Rock`n`Roll Sherbert and it must have had pop rocks in it because after she ate it all she was saying, " My teeth are popping."




After we SMASHED our ice cream we went to yet another park. This one is really new to our area and it just beautiful. So I definetly think you will be seeing more of this place in later post. We think we are going to start walking here.

Ok the more you try and get out of this thing the faster it spins.

This thing spins too.
This thing was so fun everyone got in on it even Charis!
I had just fallen off this round thing. WOW I need a tan!!
Brittany getting her turn<---Ha no pun intended! LOL

Here is my spin! Rylee took the picture!