The Secret Garden:July Meeting

How do you see or imagine your baby/ies now that you do not have them with you?

I always imagine Caden as a baby in my granny's arms or maybe being pushed in the stroller by my Pa. I think he looks like me with wavy brown hair and blue eyes that light up the heavens. I imagine my Granny telling him all sorts of stories about me and my sister and his Honie. Before my Granny died she told me she would take very good care of him til i get there, that is if she can get him away from my Pa. He was there first great grandchild. She died 7 months later. I believe when we go to heaven we will see our family just the way we want to. For example, my Granny will look just like i want her too old, and well, like a granny, but to my mom I'm sure she will look young like she did when she was raising her. Some people have told me they imagine there baby growing just like they would have had they stayed here. I think that a lifetime here on earth is but a second there in Heaven and no one gets a chance to miss anyone from earth. That's part of the reason why everyone is so happy because before they know it they turn around and everyone they just left on earth is right behind them. When i get there he will be just the way i met him. Small, helpless, and completely dependent on me, his mother.

How did the loss of your last pregnancy affect your choices/decisions about the birth of your subsequent pregnancy?

I had all my others by C-section just like Caden. My Dr was wonderful about Caden i knew he was gone and she gave me the choice to have him natural or C and on top of the choice of C-section i had the choice of being put under or awake. I chose to be put under because the reward at the end of any birth is the cry of you baby i knew i wouldn't be hearing that and didn't want to suffer through that as well. With the other Kiddos i had everyone at either 37 to 38weeks SCHEDULED C-section. I was bringing home a baby dang it!!!

...ssenmodnaR

So here is just pure-D-random stuff for your enjoyment! First of all I'm raising a tadpole my daughter brought home from the neighbors house i had never even seen a tadpole other than on TX and now here i am raising this little guy and he(I guess its a he)(wait a minute aren't frogs asexual?) ((I told you this would be random!)) has already grown ALOT!!!

Further news My daughter threw a battery out of the remote at her brother and chipped his tooth(more than a chip really like 1/3 of it) I was livid!

You really can't see it to good here i just thought it turned out pretty cute.

We went to my friends house today and hung out a bit after going to the GYM!!! (yet another of my items from my TO-DO list)((CHECK)) My son found this and had to bring it home since her daughter grew out of it.

So that's it I think. Now the only thing left to do on the To-Do list is CHURCH! I have a church but i have a girlfriend that want to start going to church and doesn't belong to one so now I'm on the hunt for one that we can go to together. She wouldn't like mine because there isn't enough young people to her liking otherwise i would just go there but i want her to be comfy too. So for now i'm on the lookout!!!

Check one off my TO DO list...

So as you read yesterday I said i have got to get these kids out of this house a bit. So I did it around 2 we went to the park. I always love going to the park. After all who doesn't like taking there kids somewhere where they will have fun for FREE!!!






This is my brother, JB!!
It was hot on her feet.
Let's bury Caben


I was trying to teach Caben to swing his legs so he would keep going.

After The park we went back to Ben's moms AKA Tiny to get cleaned up a bit. The kids were soooo dusty from the burying each other. Then we ran home and ate dinner and went back to Tiny's and picked her up for a SWEET TREAT. We also met up with my sister in law, Brittany and nephew, Cy.

Rylee's was Rock`n`Roll Sherbert and it must have had pop rocks in it because after she ate it all she was saying, " My teeth are popping."




After we SMASHED our ice cream we went to yet another park. This one is really new to our area and it just beautiful. So I definetly think you will be seeing more of this place in later post. We think we are going to start walking here.

Ok the more you try and get out of this thing the faster it spins.

This thing spins too.
This thing was so fun everyone got in on it even Charis!
I had just fallen off this round thing. WOW I need a tan!!
Brittany getting her turn<---Ha no pun intended! LOL

Here is my spin! Rylee took the picture!

MY TO~DO LIST...

So I fine myself very unmotivated to do anything!!! I have got to get off my BUM.

My To Do List:

1. Start going to church on Sunday! (something I really only do sometimes, but I love to go so I don't know why I wont make myself get up. And on top of that I usually only go to Worship and that starts at 11am. So I really have NO excuse)

2. Get myself to the GYM!!! (I was wanting to go with a friend but it looks like that really isn't going to happen)

3. Got to start going places during the day with these kids. (they are going stir crazy)

4. WELL...TO BE CONTINUED

So I think these are the most important as of right now anyway.

In further news I went to Wal-Mart tonight and got the kiddos Coraline. I love Tim Burton movies especially ones like Nightmare Before Christmas. Its in 3D too. So cool, but a bit scary. I LOVED IT!!!!! I got some ice cream while we were there and we sat down and watch the movie with our ice cream. Here are a few pictures from today!

PLEASE PRAY!! Weekend Recap!!!

First and foremost I want to say PLEASE keep MckMama and Stellan and there WHOLE family in your PRAYERS tonight and always Stellan is being airlifted to Boston soon. He has been though so much and is in need of your prayers.


So I think I'm really falling off the band wagon on my blogging but am really going to try and do better. Not a whole lot seems to be going on right now. I'm planning Rylee's 6th birthday. We are going to go skating and the kids should have a blast. Getting ready for Rylees cheer camp on the 1st of August, its going to be too cute because this year the girls are going to have real uniforms not like the previous year were all they had was a shirt. So I'm sure I will have lots of photos to post. Over the weekend I went out with my best friend Whitney her wonderful family offered to watch the kiddos for me(I LOVE THEM!!!) we went Buzzard Bill's for dinner we got this GREAT meal, it was a hollowed out eggplant battered and deep fried with shrimp and crab meat in au gratin sauce inside that. It is SO good. Then we went to George's and listen to a live band i don't know who they were(they played Tom Petty and i love him so...) then we went to Oakleys we had a really nice time dancing and all but on the way home i couldn't help but think how much fun i would have had if Ben had been there. I love going places with Ben he just seems to make things so much more fun. Sunday i went to a good friend of mines baby shower wish i had pictures but i forgot the camera. I know i was upset too. It was at the lake (REALLY HOT) but fun because we got to go swimming afterwards. The oddest thing about the day had to of been when we saw some chick SHAVING her legs down by the water! What the HECK! Me and some of my friends just couldn't stop watching it was like a train wreck you couldn't take your eyes off. LOOK AWAY!!! LOOK AWAY!!!! It was the longest baby shower i had ever been to 2-8 WHOA!! But REALLY fun. Everyone there ask where Ben was and how was he doing i really felt the love for him.

So that was our weekend i guess it was pretty interesting well that girl at the lake was anyway.

These are the days of our lives...

So tonight i just wanted to post some of my favorite pictures over the years...

Rylee Roo as we call looking innocent...dont let her fool you. :)
Caben and Ben Look at all that hair he had golly he was such a cutie then...he still is
Charis is such a HAM!!!
LOOK AT THOSE PEEPERS!!!!
Me and Ben on a night out. He had just come home from A-school and we had to celebrate!

Yes i have purple in my hair. :)
If you are a parent you know there are days you wish you could do this! They climbed in there themselves i asure you.
My FAVORITE!!! This is at Bens Graduation from bootcamp we hadn't seen each other in forever it seemed and i just feel to tears in his arms. I was so PROUD at this moment and continue to be.